So I've started my studies in Vammala or nowadays they call it Sastamala, but I like Vammala better because that's what this place is all about (the finnish word "vamma" means handicap or injury). I mean when I first came here this looked like an innocent little village but it's a real ghetto in here. Something bad happens almost every week and some people have serious issues to deal with. It's really no problem for me since I've always been kind of a survivor type but if I think closely about it, it just makes me feel all surreal. Life intrudes to my skin like never before, both in good and bad. But I can tell you it's definitely not nice to witness real-life violence at close range.

At least the school is all okay and pretty much all of the stuff we've done so far seem decent. At the moment I'm making a styrox lion statue and in this course we're also gonna do animals made of foamed plastic and other cool things.
I miss Helsinki and wish I had a teleport so I could just swap between school and my real home. But because that scifi shit won't happen I'm currently living in a school hostel. It sucks because it's right on the school yard and we have mold in our fridge and the room itself is like a fucking jail and ugly as hell but at least I've got one awesome roommate, Iida. She and the other friends I've made here are the best part of living here and I'm lucky to have awesome people around me like =kiusa. Otherwise I would propably have quit my studies already if I had to be around total dickheads.

I've grown even harder from the outside but at the same time softened a lot from the inside. I'm aware I'm not so unbreakable I used to be but I don't know if that's a bad thing. And some of my unnecessary self-assertivity has dropped off somewhere, I have still some serious egoist in me but I know how to appreciate other people around me too. Suddenly I know the value of significant things in life too, like food for example. After eating crappy noodles and other cheap food I really know how to appreciate some good meal. But yeah, I wish I will have some happy and educational years here and this is a great way to start learning how to live on my own.

For some reason there's lots of seagulls flying around where I live.
This is apartment house area so I wonder what they're looking from here. Anyways it's a certain sign of summer when seagulls appear.

I got my very own laptop, which is a big sensation really cause in our house there is only one computer that everyone uses. It's annoying because if I leave somewhere for a sec then someone else occupies it. But the biggest fun is that I get to choose the desktop image : DD In our shared computer someone else always gets to decide and then there's always some ugly roadside image or something else that doesn't quite match my taste.

My friend brought her cat into our house for a little visit. It was really unusual to see a cat sneaking around our apartment, or just animals in general. I've never had any pets and I have so bad catfever now. I would so much like to have little purring creature wandering around our house. I would like it to be really outgoing by nature like my friends cat. The cat likes to be stroked and it just stays on your lap for hours and doesn't go away at all like most of cats would do at some point.
But if anyone has kittens to be given away feel free to bring one to me ^^.

Birthdays.

Just when I finally got used to the idea of being 18 years old, number 19 comes laughing around the corner. It's actually even not the age 19 but the fact that I'm gonna be twenty just after a year. I feel so ooold. Almost twenty years of being alive is quite an achievement, I should do some "101 things to do before I die"-list or something.
I'm pretty sure that I'm still gonna do childish stuff and be a fan of unicorns and moomins and watch cartoons to the age of 40, long live my inner child : )

Hi!
Could anyone help me and post some music suggestions here? I would like it instrumental and no vocals if possible. Maybe a little electroish, kind of backround music that doesn't mess up my thoughts while I'm drawing and reading. So, please, anyone?

edit: thanks to everyone who made suggestions!

It Has been a long time since I last wrote this thingies
Just random but enthusiastic HAAA HEE HIII for my 3000 pageviews
That's not the only reason why but I'm going to make a delicious carrot cake just because it will be so tastyy : 3.
Arts are not progressing cuz all Lord of the rings movies were shown on TV week ago and pretty much made me only to want to draw hobbits, hobbits and even more hobbits into every piece of paper that appears in front of me

I'm totally exhausted with the school test week though it hasnt even started yet.
this awful winter weather also makes me depressed it's almost april so the damn snow should go away soon! Sunlight and happy spring minded humans and chirping tiny birds instead of that plz

Speaking of tiny chirping birds, in geology class we watched a really weird but interesting video about food industry. First there were some guy watering tomatoes with only his underpants on (okay there's hot in those greenhouses but what, really? hygiene, anyone?) Then there where tiny yellow chickens coming out of some machine with pretty fast speed, and they landed in a basket in front of the machine and continued going forward on a conveyor belt. They seemed to hit the basket really hard, don't know if they were hurt but they looked like potatoes or tennis balls or something.
After it, two women sorted the chicks and the other dropped one of them and was like whoops and then picked it up and put it back like nothing happened (Like you would put back to shelf a package of biscuits you accidentally dropped in the grocery store). That must've really hurt and though it was so unbelievable and brutal and weird we pretty much just laughed at it. I would like to know if that's the way how they really produce our broilers? Would be interesting to find nasty bruises or broken bones from chicken products