So I've started my studies in Vammala or nowadays they call it Sastamala, but I like Vammala better because that's what this place is all about (the finnish word "vamma" means handicap or injury). I mean when I first came here this looked like an innocent little village but it's a real ghetto in here. Something bad happens almost every week and some people have serious issues to deal with. It's really no problem for me since I've always been kind of a survivor type but if I think closely about it, it just makes me feel all surreal. Life intrudes to my skin like never before, both in good and bad. But I can tell you it's definitely not nice to witness real-life violence at close range.

At least the school is all okay and pretty much all of the stuff we've done so far seem decent. At the moment I'm making a styrox lion statue and in this course we're also gonna do animals made of foamed plastic and other cool things.
I miss Helsinki and wish I had a teleport so I could just swap between school and my real home. But because that scifi shit won't happen I'm currently living in a school hostel. It sucks because it's right on the school yard and we have mold in our fridge and the room itself is like a fucking jail and ugly as hell but at least I've got one awesome roommate, Iida. She and the other friends I've made here are the best part of living here and I'm lucky to have awesome people around me like =kiusa. Otherwise I would propably have quit my studies already if I had to be around total dickheads.

I've grown even harder from the outside but at the same time softened a lot from the inside. I'm aware I'm not so unbreakable I used to be but I don't know if that's a bad thing. And some of my unnecessary self-assertivity has dropped off somewhere, I have still some serious egoist in me but I know how to appreciate other people around me too. Suddenly I know the value of significant things in life too, like food for example. After eating crappy noodles and other cheap food I really know how to appreciate some good meal. But yeah, I wish I will have some happy and educational years here and this is a great way to start learning how to live on my own.